we come from glory into grace
in an ever-changing face
like rocks with secrets beneath the surface
geodes of a fallen world.
The cold hard surface of the rock is unfeeling and seemingly impenetrable. Wintry hearts turn to rocks sometimes. I’ve been hiking in the mountains in the winter. It is a wonder and horrible thing. But me being tired of walking and bitten by the cold is not the point here. If you’ve ever seen the rock faces in the woods I know you have marveled but what I sometimes forget to marvel at is the way the water, running continuously over, can cut rocks. But depending on the flow the waters does not always break rock, it shapes it into something smooth and refined. Our hearts are refined in such ways. Either broken in two or refined to be smooth, but each time by the same forces.
“For I am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make pathways through the wilderness.
I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.”
Happy New Year, darlings. In a sea of resolutions and goals and broken promises, where are you? People joke about breaking their resolutions or trying so hard to stick with them. But we bend and we break and we become like willow limbs soaked in winter rain as we bend the rules we set for ourselves in weakness of wanting to change but being afraid to at the same time. So here’s a little tip or two: find out where you are. Take a breath and a step back and look at yourself. In Genesis 3:9 God asks Adam and Eve “where are you?” even though he already knows, and in Genesis 4:9 He asks Cain “where is your brother?” even though He already knows but there is still a reason for this. Sometimes we don’t know where WE are (or what we’re doing). How can we possibly set realistic goals for a new year if we don’t have a realistic view of our own lives. Isaiah 58:9 says “Then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help and we will say: Here I am.”
So before you let out a frustrated suspiration because of your own rules you break, or the goals you fail to achieve, take an inventory of yourself. Say thank you to all the wonderful things about yourself, and only then focus on the things you’d like to improve. Because no matter how many times you fail, new beginnings will become evident if you look.